I just wish this all could stop. One morning I feel great and the next I feel like complete shit and just want to sleep and get the pain to go away. Everything feels different now, nothing’s the same and I don’t know how to deal with it. I just need this all to be over with. This is was going to be my year. A year full of fun, college, starting over, a rebirth, but yet something I’ve been dealing with almost since birth came back again after they told me it had practically no chance of coming back. What’s to keep me fighting? IDK, but I will that’s all I’m going to say.I just so badly want it to be next summer so I can FINALLY move on with my life.

My faith in the world, in humanity, and in you just gets less and less everyday.